Grandma is not feeling well. We are all worried about her so we decided that a medical check-up is needed. We don’t want her to end up ignoring the shortness of breath she’s experiencing at night time and the weakness when getting up. We all need to know what’s happening so that we can address it properly and if she needs electrosurgery then we are going to go pay for it so she can have it done right away! We are a nervous wreck and we just want to know what’s going on.

We all love our fussy grandma. She is very vocal about her love for each one of us her grandchildren so it is but natural for us to love her back a hundredfold.

On Tuesday, November 1st, my dad, siblings and I will visit our dearly departed loved ones. We will visit my brother, mom and grandma at the columbary. This is the first time to spend All Saint’s Day in a columbary because before my mom and brother were laid at a cemetery in Bulacan. Our family is relieved that my mom and brother was transferred here in the city last March because some parts of Bulacan are now flooded due to the typhoons. I can’t imagine going to a flooded cemetery. That is just scary for me.

I’m excited to buy flowers and decorate them for our dearly departed. In a way, it’s kind of sad that I’m doing flower decorations for my mom, brother and grandma who is not here anymore. But offering them flowers shows how much we love and misses them. It’s a sad and at the same time a happy event for me when we are visiting our loved ones.

My brother bought a new puppy and it’s so cute. It’s a hybrid dog, a chihuahua crossed yorkie. We named him Champ. He is so small and can even fit in a small basket. Unfortunately, he’s too frail. We visited the vet for several days since the day he was bought. Champ was sick and was just sleeping all the time. There were days though that he would stand and would try to roam around. But he was easily tired and would lay on the basket after roaming for a minute or so.

Unfortunately he died after 5 days of staying at our home. We knew that his frail little body will not make it. Still, it’s so sad to see him lifeless. Until now, I still miss my little Champ.

My friend was telling me yesterday about her credit card. She was telling me that she’s always bringing her credit cards anywhere and she learned that she needs an rfid credit card to protect her from those theft.

She had a bad experienced with these kinds of theft when she saw that her bill contains purchases that she didn’t even do. She was really annoyed because those purchases causes a hole in her pocket. When she complained about the purchases, the credit card company explained that there’s really a transaction. She couldn’t do anything about it anymore so for protection she bought a protection for her credit cards.

Why are there people who are so ungrateful? You help them and yet when you are the one who is needing the help, they turn their backs on you.

This is what my uncle is experiencing right now. When he was working abroad, he was sending money to his family and friends without questions. Now he is sick and has no money, those people are turning their backs on him. They don’t even care or help him. I pity my uncle because nobody wants to help him but us (my family). Those people that he helped people should be damned! They should be shamed for not being grateful and not helping my uncle when he needed help!

The other day, I’m experiencing joint pains and terrible backaches. I have a theory that my health is poor right now because I am so fat! I really need to lose weight but I’m having difficulty with exercising and dieting. I don’t have time to exercise and I get too cranky when I don’t eat well.

My friend is suggesting to try diet pills. I want diet pills that work so that I could lose weight fast. I don’t want to be a fat girl anymore. I want to have my old body back, the one that is fit and healthy.

Today is a not so good day for me. I don’t like my new schedule and I’m disappointed with it. Supposedly everyday my schedule is from 7:30 until 12 noon only but there are changes and now it’s until 3:30pm.

I don’t like that schedule because I already have plans for the afternoon. Now I have to reschedule everything and that really sucks! I’m really disappointed earlier but there’s nothing that I could do. Hay, I just wish I’ll have a good day tomorrow.

Yesterday our family went to our yearly summer outing. We went to Laiya, San Juan Batangas and had so much fun swimming under the sun. My sisters and I went a little crazy swimming around and viola! Sunburned skin and it feels like it’s been stretching and swollen.

Ooh! I so hate sunburn and the stinging feeling on my skin. Wish that my skin will get better! I really hate it when my skin is stinging like hell!
Sunburn please go away! leave my skin alone!

As I have mentioned before, there are two additions in our family. Two kids from my sister’s friend, a boy and a girl who we willingly adopted (for the meantime) until their mom could get them. Hazel, our little girl is so happy that finally, she will have playmates. The girl is sweet and very lovable though she has some attitudes that needs to be corrected. When she was prompted, she easily complied. The boy who is older, on the other hand, is such a problem child. He is so naughty! He teaches Hazel stuffs that a kid should not yet learn! We are really disturbed at what he is doing and we don’t tolerate his naughtiness at all!

Earlier I got so mad at him because in front of our dad, and other relatives, he pounded his fist so hard in Hazel’s leg! Hazel screamed and cried and I got so mad that I slap his hand with my slippers! He is such a bad boy! Hazel is so tiny to be pounded at, I’m still very mad right now with what he did! My sisters and I decided to ship him again where he came from. He’s giving us so much stressed and hatred towards him. I really lose my patience with that problem child! We don’t deserve him and he’s wasting all our time!

Oh I so hate it! I’m super fat right now and hating myself for not watching what I eat. I bonded with my bestfriend yesterday and I saw that she gained weight. I thought she’s pregnant but she’s not. When I wrote that she gained weight, that means a little pound added to her body. She’s skinny before and with the additional weight, she looks sexy.

I wish that adding weight will make me look sexy but unfortunately, adding another pounds to my body has made me look like a cow. I don’t want to become the fatty lady anymore. I want to be fit and look good. Plus, I want to wear skimpy clothes, dresses and a bikini..

After discussing about the cameras, my sisters and I talked about Steph’s picture. We particularly talked about the bad make up of her friends and the one with acne. I pity that girl because she should have been one of the pretty girls. Her skin is so awful! Acne everywhere even on her neck. I told my sister that she should take best acne supplements to eliminate those acne. It’s really sad to see a girl who had a pretty face but acne had ruined it.

My friend is asking me if I know how to file for social security disability. I told her that I’m not familiar with it and that she should search the web or something. I learned from her that her dad is going to file for that one. He got injured while working and now he’s on vacation. He also needs payment for therapies.

My friend and I chatted for hours and promise that I’ll visit them next weekend. She thanked me and also asked me to pray for his dad’s fast recovery.

Yesterday, I enjoyed shopping for accessories and other stuffs but in shopping for clothes, I am so frustrated with my body. I gained weight in less that two months and now I’m suffering because clothes won’t fit me anymore. I really hate my body right now. It’s so depressing to try on clothes then it won’t fit you. I’m really sad.

I need the best weight loss supplements to lose weight fast. Summer is just a month away and I’m hoping that I will be able to wear shorts by that time. Wish, wish, wish.

I was really surprised when I closely looked in the mirror and saw how big I am. My weight has doubled or maybe tripled in a span of less than two months! Oh no!!! It cannot be! I am so regretting that I eat and eat non-stop like there’s no tomorrow. Awww, I’m really sad and I’m now desperate to lose weight.

I hope that I’ll lose weight soon. I promised myself that I’m going to exercise again and will try to eat less to lose weight fast.

One of my friends in facebook has a mom who is sick with breast cancer. His mom is undergoing chemotherapy sessions but the doctor had decided to stop the chemotherapy because they will now operate or remove the lump on her breast. My friend had post this status on his facebook and that they don’t have enough money for his mom’s operation. His mom is used to be our Kindergarten teacher so we knew her personally as well.

A lot of people are willing to help and are asking for the bank account number so they could chip in. I also asked for that because I empathize with them. I also experienced having someone in the family sick and your family doesn’t have enough money for the treatment. I know how it feels. I really do feel sorry until I saw a picture of him wakeboarding. Hello?! You’re mom is sick and your family needs money for her treatment and then there you are so happy doing wakeboarding. Another thing is that I just realized that he doesn’t even thanked the people for their prayers and financial help. Now, I’m thinking if he is really worth helping. I know his mom needs help but it’s so disappointing that he is not as grateful as he should be.

Yesterday I went for my final fitting with my gown and I really don’t like it at all. It looks like I’m poofy and it’s not good. I’m on the chubby side and poofy gowns makes me look twice as bigger as I am. I’m sooo not happy with it. That gown cost 3k and now I have to look for another gown which will surely leave a hole in my pocket.

It’s only a month away before the wedding and I need to buy that gown immediately. It’s really frustrating when you are fat and you’ll see the gowns of other bridesmaids who are very much slimmer and there’s nothing wrong with their gowns. Aaargh, really frustrated and so not happy with my body right now.

This is what my gown should look like, but during our first fitting, I’m hesitant and doubtful if it will look good on me. When I fitted the gown, I look like I’m pregnant and I totally didn’t like it at all! Who wants to look like they are about to pop any minute? It’s really frustrating when you are fat because it’s so hard to look for gowns that will look good on you. I hope on my next fitting the gown will look just like these gowns. Hopeful!

I love watching Glee but lately it is not fun to watch it anymore. The first episode of this season is awesome and the casts are all good. Then the Britney episode which is great, too. But lately the previous episode is like blah and Lea Michele’s face is really annoying. Her acting also is super duper OA, like super annoying to the max! Lately, she’s been in the controversy regarding the GQ photo shoot. I noticed that since she lose a lot of pounds and became skinny, she became wild like her inner slut is unleashing. What’s wrong with her? I used to like her before but now, she’s too much. Over acting and slutty like nobody is paying attention to her before, eewww a major turn off.