Yesterday I went for my final fitting with my gown and I really don’t like it at all. It looks like I’m poofy and it’s not good. I’m on the chubby side and poofy gowns makes me look twice as bigger as I am. I’m sooo not happy with it. That gown cost 3k and now I have to look for another gown which will surely leave a hole in my pocket.

It’s only a month away before the wedding and I need to buy that gown immediately. It’s really frustrating when you are fat and you’ll see the gowns of other bridesmaids who are very much slimmer and there’s nothing wrong with their gowns. Aaargh, really frustrated and so not happy with my body right now.

This is what my gown should look like, but during our first fitting, I’m hesitant and doubtful if it will look good on me. When I fitted the gown, I look like I’m pregnant and I totally didn’t like it at all! Who wants to look like they are about to pop any minute? It’s really frustrating when you are fat because it’s so hard to look for gowns that will look good on you. I hope on my next fitting the gown will look just like these gowns. Hopeful!

I love watching Glee but lately it is not fun to watch it anymore. The first episode of this season is awesome and the casts are all good. Then the Britney episode which is great, too. But lately the previous episode is like blah and Lea Michele’s face is really annoying. Her acting also is super duper OA, like super annoying to the max! Lately, she’s been in the controversy regarding the GQ photo shoot. I noticed that since she lose a lot of pounds and became skinny, she became wild like her inner slut is unleashing. What’s wrong with her? I used to like her before but now, she’s too much. Over acting and slutty like nobody is paying attention to her before, eewww a major turn off.

I went to the shop where I had my gown made and I’m not happy with the result. I’m the Maid of Honor in my best friend’s wedding and I need to have a beautiful gown. When I fit my gown earlier, I don’t like because I look like I’m pregnant and it made me look so big. Hay, I really hate it

I need to lose weight now and I mean this is really serious. I can’t afford to eat rice or any sweets anymore and I need to exercise to death! I don’t want to walk down that aisle looking like I’m about to give birth. Of course I want to look as beautiful and radiant as the bride.

My friend Rachel is confiding to us about her husband who is cheating on her. She told us that she she caught him cheating when she read the text messages of the other woman. She confronted him and he denied it at first but later on, he admitted it and said sorry to her. Rachel had forgave him but lately she had this feeling that the affair is still on going. She told us that her husband is deleting all the messages in his inbox and all the calls were deleted, too. A friend of ours told her about real spy gear wherein she can buy a Sim Card Reader that reads deleted text messages from cell phone. Rachel told us that she will buy one as soon as possible to caught her husband from cheating.

Carla is looking for her dad’s disability insurance. Her dad had worked for years and recently he suffered from a mild stroke. I’ve known Carla since we were in grade school and her dad is like an uncle to me. It’s sad to hear that he is sick. He used to be so strong and I cannot help but be sad when I visited him in the hospital. Carla told me that he’s feeling better now but they need his disability insurance for all the bills that are piling up.

Jona, my friend, is looking for Texas Maritime lawyers for her husband. Her husband was injured while he was working on board and now the company doesn’t want to pay for all the expenses. Jona is only a housewife and they were just getting by from their savings. Her husband needed some therapy for the injured arm and it should have been shouldered by the company.

Bayantel drives me crazy!!! All I get from Bayantel are POOR DSL CONNECTION and POOR SERVICE FROM THEIR STUPID PEOPLE!!! I’m so mad right now because I repeatedly reported this poor connection and those stupid people didn’t do anything about it! I’m one of the good payers but they didn’t give a damn about it!

Imagine I have a poor DSL connection a day before the typhoon Basyang wreck havoc here in Manila and until now, no changes at all! Most of the time when you call their customer service number, you have to wait for so long before somebody would answer and or somebody would pick the phone then just hung up. Great service, isn’t it?! Again for the nth time BAYANTEL SUCKS!!!

My bestfriend called and she told me that the fitting of the gown will be due at the end of August. That really gives me a scare! I hate it because I’m still fat and I know that I’m not going to look good on the gown. Hay, I really wish that I’m size zero right now. Well, what I really need is a fat burner to help me lose weight fast. Another thing that I need is to get serious in losing weight. It’s been so long that I’m trying to lose weight then I’ll eat like I’ve never eaten before. It’s really time to get serious about it.

I need to lose weight fast because time is running out and by December, I will be my BFF’s Maid of Honor. I had nightmares about the wedding, I saw myself looking hideous wearing a maroon gown. I’m scared that I will really look like that on the wedding day.

Now, I’m looking for weight loss products to help me lose weight. I cannot go on and not do something about it. I really need to focus on my goal even if it is so hard. Losing weight is so difficult for me. Why am I not thin like other girls?

My sister had told me that one of her coworker was diagnosed with Colon Cancer. It’s a sad news and she told me that all of them were shocked when they heard about it. Now, their office is into detoxifying their body. One of them is looking for best colon cleansing because of what happened to their coworker.

I told her to try fruit diets for at least three days to cleanse her colon. Staying away from pork can help, too. I also told her to drink lots of water and avoid sodas. My sister told me that what happened to her coworker is a wake up call for all of them. It made them realize how we really need to take good care of our body.

I’m sad that earlier I saw the season finale of Glee. I really enjoyed watching it. I still remember the first time that I saw the series is when Kurt and the baseball players danced to the tune of Single ladies. That instant I fell in love with Glee!

Ooooh can’t wait for the next season. Can’t wait to hear the songs that the casts will sing. I love Finn and Rachel, though there were times that she’s annoying. I’ll miss Kurt and Mercedes, I’ll miss the whole cast.

After our blissful vacation in Baguio, I’m back few pounds heavier. Hay, I’m fat again and have to work hard to burn these fats. I’m a bit depressed and frustrated right now because it’s soooo hard to lose weight. In just a few days I gained the pounds that I loss while working out for hours everyday in the gym. I had to look for fat burner reviews to help me lose weight fast. I’m really sad that I’m more fatter than before.

I’ve been going to the gym for about two weeks now and I just notice that my skin is breaking out. I think it’s because of the heat and the sweat. Urgh, I hate it. I don’t like pimples and definitely I’ll go into hysterics if this will turn into acne! I’m really panicky right now because whatever I do, these pimples won’t go away.

One of the lady who works out at the gym told that she used to have an acne before and her friend gave her an acne product gave her a smooth and flawless skin. Well I’m gonna try this product too for sure. I want to have smooth and flawless skin like her.

Remember Uncle Matt, the one that I told you about having mesothelomia? It’s just so sad that I heard from my friend that he’s not doing any good. I’m super sad about the news. First my Aunt had an accident then Uncle Matt. What is happening?
I told my friend to be strong for her dad and family. She told me that they’re being positive because they heard of about a treatment for asbestos cancer mesothelioma and that there are reports of survival from other patients.

I don’t know if I’m comforted by that news because all I could think of is Uncle Matt’s welfare. I just really hope and pray that everything will work out fine.

My Aunt met an accident last week. She’s now in a wheelchair and had to undergo therapy. We were all saddened by the news. But she assured us that she’s doing fine and thanks to her social security disability that helped her cope well.

Thank God that she’s okay, we were really worried because she’s too far away from us. My grandma’s in near panic when she heard the news. At least now we know that she’s doing fine and that our cousins are taking care of her. Whew! I really hate hearing bad news specially those that involve our love ones.

Our trainer weigh us (my sister and me) earlier and i just lost 2 pounds. Not bad because I just hit the gym for 3 days last week but I’m still a bit frustrated. I was hoping I had lost at least 5lbs. but it’s just 2lbs.

I just hope that I’ll lose more than 5lbs. next Tuesday. I’ve been restricting myself from eating fatty or sweet foods. I also hope that I could stick with my Quaker Oats diet. Hay, it’s so hard to lose weight. I really wish I’ll lose a lot of pounds fast because if not, I might be frustrated again then eat like a bear. Please, please, let me be a skinny girl soon!

My friends mom was hospitalized due to heart problem. Fortunately they are now residing in the USA and it’s a big help because the hospitals there are more advance than those in here. Sheila, my friend told me about the oximeter that they bought for her mom. Her mom’s resting at home now but she still needs to be monitored. Hearing that her mom is sick makes me so sad because it reminds me of the days when my mom is sick. Hearing somebody’s sick really breaks my heart. I hope and pray that she will be okay soon.